today while helping out with ushering in church with some of the other j2s, someone commented that we look so grown up now. that really made me realise that i'll be 18 this year. that's only 2 years to the big 20. boy, that's really old. i still feel around 16. i cant imagine starting work, and taking time out to meet up with pri sch/ sec sch/ jc friends for coffee or smth. sometimes when i get sick of school i tell bombs that i just want to get married and she gives me the what the hell are you talking about look. haha, i think it's a hockey syndrome cos gerry and adee feel that way too.

yesterday i was volunteering at the nuh emd and when i was talking to this elderly woman, she held my hand and she said i had a good heart and i felt really happy after that. but then it got me thinking about altruism and whether the satisfaction you get from helping others negates the selflessness of the act itself